being part of the L.G.B.T.Q.I.A+ community in a chrisitan family

 you know since I was 13 I knew that the legal gender that I was born with was not right everyone who 

knew me from when I was little I knew  that I had a feminine personality I use to sneak into my mom's

makeup set I remember one time I ran around with my little crown saying I was a pretty little boy now 

when I was 14 I thought I was Bisexual but then I had sexual intercourse with another boy and I didn't 

like it but growing up in an old fashion Christian family it has really bad up's and down's like for example

when I thought I was Bisexual I came out to my dad we were at dinner at olive garden I started 

the conversation about how my uncle/aunt was doing then he asked why I brought it up then I came out

and told him I said to him Dad I'm Bisexual his response was so what little boys have you been doing 

those words were a huge punch to the gut I asked him what did you just say he repeated himself I

wanted to take the steak knife that was right next to my hand and stab him in the heart and watch him 

die but instead, I didn't then walked outside and called my mom and told her what he said to me then 

I went back inside he was gone so was the care the waitress was cleaning our table and I knew our 

the waitress  from the other times I've come in with my mom and there was a note on the table the note

said I am not gonna let some pediflie fagget live in my house then I started to cry our waitress sam 

came over and asked me if I was okay I showed her the note my father had left at the table then she 

asked me a question did your dad leave you I said yes then the manager came over and asked me the 

the same question then they drove me down the road to the District 3 office for the sheriff's office 

then they drove me back home and my dad wouldn't let me back in the house so they said if you don't

well give your son to children protective services next thing  I know I'm back at home in my room but 

this is a lesson